Good morning world

I Fucking hate it when people bring up my past.
And it makes me fucking hurt again.
I hate talking about it.
What a morning!!!

*Pissed and hurt*

I got this somewhere in friendster.
Let me share it with you.

Letting go of the past...
Forget the past,its history,those who use only their past as a reference are doomed to repeat the same mistake again.Give thanks for the life experiences you've racked up to this point and determine the direction in which you really want to go.There's no time like the present to redirect your future.You are the one who is in control of yourlife and dont let the past dictate it.

TIme to take responsibility...
"If you want to know what the future holds,you should be willing to do what it takes to make it happen for yourself.Each of us has a choice to make,either we face each day believing that we make life happen,or we believe that life is something that happens to us and we are victims of circumstance.If you're busy blaming the rest of the world for your circumstances,you give away your power to change yourself for the better.Nobody is perfect,making mistakes is how we learn,only by owning up to the responsibility for our actions are we able to make the best of our lives now.

IF you think...
If you think you are beaten,you are.If you think you dare not,you dont.
If you think you want to win,but you think you cant,Its almost a cinch you wont.IF you think you'll lose,you're lost;For out in the world we find,Success begins with a fellow's will;Its all in the state of mind.
Life's battles dont always go to the stronger or faster man,But sooner or later the man who wins,Is the man who thinks he can.

For the broken heart..
"Fate is shaped half by expectation,half by inattention.But somehow,when you lose something you love,faith takes over.You have to pay attention to what you lost.You have to undo the expectation.

For success and lifes motivation...
The strategic dimension is an ever-changing one,So this is a never ending road.Every time you reach a plateau of achievement,you find you are at a foot of another hill.

Eve of Chinese New Year

Started our day with a cup of latte at Starbucks Liat tower.


Jus me and my girlfren, Shidah on a CHinese New Year Eve.
It was nice jus listening to ipod and updating each other
about what been happening around us.
We haven been hanging out togeder due to so many reasons.



Anyway she have a new toy.Gggrrr.
Nokia 6680



After getting bored with town.
We decided to club at Momo.
Asked Sedah to tag along too.

Me and Shidah before heading to Momo


Meet up with Sedah in front of Momo.
And Sani join us inside.
This guy is riot ah.One damn joker.
Become our P.I.M.P for the day.
But useless!!!! Din even save me from a guy!!!
USELESS P.I.M.P.Haha.

I was dancing with Sedah when this guy jus
stand in between us and dance with me.
Talk about courtesy, he is sux at it.
He turn me off when he try to touch my butt.
I jus push him away and dance with my girlfrens.
I hate it when guys do dat.
Yes its a club but that doesnt mean you can jus
touch a girl anywhere u want.
Not all girls are as cheap as you think.
And the guy never give up dancing with me.
The P.I.M.P jus laff at me!!
Gggggrrrrrr
Thank god my girlfrens save me.

I love Momo!!
I even dance to trance.
Gosh me and trance?? Since when??
2 days straight of clubbing next week??

*smile*

I hate looking at my four pink walls
PERIOD.

I drove!!! from Woodland to Tampines.
without anyone giving me direction.
Without anyone who have a licence.
Expressway was a breeze for me. *phew*
(I have never drive alone with a person who know nuts abt driving)
I fetch Dilah and off we go to Tampines.
But I went round and round in Tampines searching for
the bloody coffeshop call Afghanistan to fetch Shila.
And this annoying girl told me to follow the bus.
Bloody hell!!!So I'm suppose to wait for the bus???!!!
Freak!!So we jus found our way to that Afghanistan.

Thank god finding Pinevale was a breeze. *phew*
Nearly everyone was there.
Din take picture of the food because we too busy eating.
Hahaha.Too many food.I must say the food are all super nice!!
My Chicken salad was all eaten up!!Wee!!
I happily bring home jus the container.Hehe.

Play charade and musical chairs after getting sick of karaoke.
Singing all the oldies songs.
I think my mom era or something.What the hell.
I only know the song Top of the world.
Charade was good.
Still I wonder how you describe a lamb!!??
That is so stupid lor.hahahaha.

I love pictures.
Here they are.....





My good frens which bring smile to my face in school




I gonna mish all of you.
See all of you in 3 months time.

And now I gonna sleep.
I have a terrible headache.

*skip skip* *hop hop*

Exam finally over.
The end of Year 1 exam.
Gonna be back in school in 3 months time as Year 2.
How time flies.
I'm graduating in Feb 2007.
Can't wait for that day to come.

Anyway, the paper today was sucks.
I cant answer 3 questions worth 3 marks each.
Yeah I'm that perfectionist.
I went out of the hall feeling shitty cause of those 3 questions.
*pulls hair in all direction*

One fine day, my fren came up to me in msn and ask me
"Eh you know bla bla bla?"
"Huh?Who is dat?"
"He's in yr friendster contact"
"Seriously I dunno him"

I felt stupid.

So I delete all those unknown contacts.
Tralalalalala.

The next day.....

They add me again.

WTF

Me stupid or they stupid??

I give up

I'm screwed!

I so gonna screw Behavioural Science paper tomorrow.
I haven even start reading the notes.

Eh wait.
Where the F**K is my notes.
I told you I'm all messed up.
My notes are everywhere on the table that I
cant even see my table anymore.

Betul!Tak bedek.
hahahahaha.

I'm gonna rot and die among my notes.

Even iwebtunes is dead.Useless.

The paper was ok.
I'm glad that its over.
It make me sick memorising all those shit.
But it make me even sick thinking of that particular person.
Even more sick when I'm not thinking abt it.
Dilah said I need a boyfriend.

But I'm cynical and skeptical towards the male species.
I think I'm becoming a female chauvinist.Ooops.

Attachment starting in a few weeks time.
Its gonna be at TTSH again.
And again I will abandoned my blog for the longest time.
Cause I will be too tired to update.

Oh yeah me gonna make dat chicken salad for the pot luck.
But what shd I add to it?
Raisins?Celery?pineapple?
I can't make up my mind.
What kinda combination is nice?
Please give me some ideas peoplesss.

I'm in love with Michael Buble again.
Woot!His songs simply soothing and put me to sleep.
Hehe.No no ... not the lullaby kind.
It jus give the calming effect you know.
The best is of course Sway
I'm swayed by his voice.

*Sleep*

My stress level is going up.
Jus finish all those major topics of my Clinical Nursing.
*phew*
And being the Miss perfectionist as I'm always am
I'm gonna go thru it again tonite.
The final touch.

Jus when I need the time to study.
Lotsa calls from friends asking me out.
What are you guys thinking!!!
Indochine,supper at JB and bla bla bla.
I'm missing out on all the fun.
*sob*

I heard good news from Irena's blog
Mrs Lee booked a function hall at her condo for my class.
POT LUCK!!!! aaarrgghh...What am i gonna bring?
Myself???
Heee.
Ok maybe ask my dad bake for me brownies.

Eeehh play cheat sehhhh....

Like who cares.

Ok maybe I make eeerr potato salad.
Haha.So easy.

Woot!!I love Memoirs of Geisha.
Beautiful people in the show.

Thanx for watching it with me.
Maybe I shd call you buffoon no?Hehe.

I'm at an exhaustion stage where I think
everything is the stressor.
I need this brain to start working but it seem dead.
My concentration span is like a one year old toddler.
It never last for five minutes.

I need to mug for the exam.
I wish my hormones will stop harrassing me.

Nothing I do is ever right.
I get so frustrated easily.
Can I blame it on my hormones?PMS?
Sometimes I feel GOD played a mean joke on me.
He gave me something precious but he took it away.
Again and again HE test my patience.
But I know I have done my best in everything I do.
I tried to repress this painful feelings.
But yet the pain still remain as it is.
Haiz.

This is what pure laziness means.



My study table is one big mess since last week.
Finally did it this morning at 8am.
I nearly throw everything dats on the table.
I hate papers...stupid papers.
And I do a bit of studying this morning.
On a super tidy table which I am proud of.

But let me tell you......
Memorising all those nursing interventions and rationales
are the hardest moment of my life.Its killing my brain cells.
Its so much harder than studying for my private dip in BM.
Shit.I hope I can vomit everything during the exam.

Enuff said.
I wanna watch Memoirs of Geisha tmr.

*toodles*

Procrastinate.

How I love it.

Sometimes I feel that its my middle name.
My study table is messy.
My notes need to be organised.
My bed in a mess cause me late for revision class.
I shd clean my room soon.

I din hit the notes last nite.
Cause yours truly busy sleeping.
And miss her favourite show Love concierge & Dia.

Its raining again.
And now she feel like reading her new novel Virtual Stranger.
With a cup of English Breakfast tea.
How perfect.

She's procrastinating again.

*push the notes aside*

Good morning sunshine.

No school for me this week.
The school have no more rooms for us first year July intake.
How sad.*sob*
Hehe.

A great sunday.
Watched Salaam Namaste.
Expected a sad emotional hindi show.
But it turn out to be one super hilarious show.
I jus cant help laffing like one crazy person.
Damn!I love crappy love movie.
And den watch Salon which I dun even understand.
Its so lame.

So now I need my beauty sleep after those overnites.
Need dat before I hit those notes.Shucks!

Hey, is chinese songs becoming popular?
Cause my brother irritate my ears with all Jay Chou songs.
I dun understand a single word he sang.
I think I got the wrong brother.He is chinese!!

*faint*

I'm pooped.

Totally.

Giving excuses after excuses to those persistent people.
Money is not an issue.
Dun use that as a bait to ask me out.
It takes more than that dudes.
Actually, you jus turn me off.
But no I dun dare to tell that when u keep sms-ing.
Cause I guess silence is the best way to avoid complication.

I shun away too many persistent people.
Tell me, is that the rite thing to do?
Or maybe I'm jus afraid.
Or maybe I jus not interested in the thing call LOVE anymore.

Maybe jus maybe......

*munching on Toblerone*

I swear chocolate makes me happy.
PERIOD

*still munching*

So whatever happen haf happen.
I seek solace in silence.
Living in the world of facade you may say.
But thats what Life is all about.
Life is a bitch...or maybe like a box of chocolate.

*Looking at the Toblerone*

Oh I get it.Hee~

Anyway, my studies this semester been superb.
I got NEARLY!! full mark for my behaviour science test.
So go figure la eh.I jus love doing stupid mistake.
See....I work best under pressure.

*roll eyes*

Haf a superb time at Singgah Slalu last nite.
Glasses of ice tea,Chocolate mousse cake,
Pancakes with ice cream,Apple ice.
Sheer delight.
Oh Joey finish nearly half of her birthday cake herself.
Jus not her luck in scissors paper stone.Nyeh!!
Happy 28th Birthday Woman!!
May your life full of chocolates eventho you swear you not gonna
eat chocolate for 1 month.Haaaa...Like I believe.

I have been stuck with oldies song since last nite.
What is happening!!!
Am I getting old??

What a question

*slap myself to wake up*

Now I gotta hunt for a bare back cheongsam top.
I'm going visiting on Chinese New Year.
How wonderful.
Clubbing after that peeps??

I'm all messed up

I'm gog on hiatus from this blogging world.

*I wish the raindrops will fall and cover my tears*

You know how mothers always said their babies makes them smile?
I guess its true ey.

I have 4 babies to look after at VSA today.
If you dunno, VSA stands for Very Special Art.
I taught them simple arts.
They jus make me smile again.
I adore them to bits.

My sweet and adorable Nor who simply cling to me
with hugs and refused to let go.

My temperamental Gracia who jus love drawing.

My Cutie pie Janna who is obsess with my hazel lense.

My cheeky Joshua who want me to be his gf.Hehe.

These kids have different kinda disabilities.
But they are intelligent.
I'm loving my saturdays...

Thanks babies, you make me realize there are still
beautiful people around without being perfect.
Dab my teary eyes with those smiles you gave me.
Those small tight hugs simply heal the wound.

I love kids!!
Hee~~

Pulse: Tachycardia

BP: 145/95

Respiration: 11/min

Diagnosis: Pulmonary oedema

Somebody pls off that life saving machine.

Standing at the edge

~When it comes to me, you dun even notice me~

Goodbye my bittersweet 2005

I'm not gonna type wat my 2005 was like.
Cause I cant be bothered.I dun intend to tell
the whole world wat happen to me in 2005.

Hello my uncertain 2006

~Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes~