Dont want u back by Eamon
This song is for "him"

See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel


Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back


You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah
Oh oh Oh oh
Uh hun yeah

Ya questioned, did i care
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but i truly mean im sad
It hurt real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

I hate this blogspot...getting sucks day by day....i post my entry 2 times and it get lost....

What shd i say? hhmm no idea...actually i am procrastinating my school work again...i jus too lazy...been skipping class for 3 days..my fren been helping me get the notes..

what i did on my birthday
Nothing...I dun really enjoy my birthday dat much....maybe i am too disturbed by wat have been happening ard me dat i dun see the pt of celebrating it.....I noe some of u said that 21 is the key to everything....but i cant see any key....hhmmm....wat? FReedom? oh i got freedom yrs ago...but i dun need it...i have enuff freedom...

so wat i did was...went for driving in the morning....then met up with "him" for bowling and lunch...ate lunch in total silence ....something seemed to be bothering him...and i noe its abt K but i jus keep quiet ...i cant be bothered anymore...but my feelings are already numb...he look so gloomy dat it bring my mood down a bit....but i still tried to joke and make him talk but he seem like a dead person...feel like smacking his head and tell him to wake up...haiz...and why am i still nice to him huh?i try to end the friendship the day b 4 cos of his selfishness cos we keep querrelling over stupid matters dat i cant stand him anymore....but he keep sending me crappy msgs like he still need me bla bl bla.....but it seem dat when i'm there he take advantage of my presence and hurt me again and again.....but anw i gave him another chance....the very last chance...why why why

Met up wif sedah afta dat....somehow she make my mood back to normal....we ate and talk craps at cosway pt....den went to eat dinner wif ma family at swensen hhmm i kinda hate swensen but my brother wanna eat there....hey why cant i choose the place huh?

Oh yeah the pictures taken on weekends are ready for viewing click HERE

*Hope tomorrow and all the days ahead will be so much better than today and yesterday....*

Wee! I got a new layout...All thanks to Aiman.....he's great at doing layout...*envy* He said its a birthday prezzie for me....so sweet of him...heheh....

Go shorty, its your birthday, we gonna party like its yr birthday
I am 21 oredi......sheesh i feel so old....Aniwei i will like to wish HAPPY BIRTHDAY to YUTA aka Ulat....We share the same birthday...and to SWEETY too....HAPPY BIRTHDAY GURLS....

The happy part
I received an email today from somone ....a fren of my ex IS. She passed the birthday message to me....aaaww i was so touched...i didnt expect him to remember my birthday....haiz...I noe he love me very much but its jus dat we are not meant for each other....Thank you so much....

Met up with my two sistas at town today....watch the eye2 with inda cos Sue end work at 5pm....while waiting for her me and inda play bowling at cineleisure....Its my first time!! haha....I must say i am not bad for a beginner cos i score two strikes whoa!! I am so bloody happy...The first time i wanna throw the ball my finger got stuck in the ball...oh gosh i was so "paiseh".....but afta a while i get the hang of it....There always a first time for everything rite...haha...met sue at coffee bean SCOTTS....Sat there for hours and jus talk crap...They gave a pink brooch for ma birthday present...wee!! I loike....I really have a good time today....thanks to ma two lovely sistas....*hugz*

Anyone game for a pool??

The sad plus frustrating part
I quarrel with "him" again today... He is the biggest JERK i ever met in my entire life...He talk abt K again...which was like WTF. Suddenly, I felt so sick of him...so sick that i dun ever want to talk to him again.....He expect me to explain things on my blog...explain wat thing huh? And today he gave me a new reason for the break up which is we communicate better as a fren yeah great first u said its yr parent then u said u love her then now a new reason....And now u ask me to explain things to her....EXPLAIN WAT??!! So contradicting sia dis fella....when u feel hurt u come running to me but wat abt my feelings....i dun tink u seem to care...so why shd i care...now u feel hurt and let me tell u that is how i feel when u ditched me, when u went out with her, when u told me u love her. And wat did i do?i jus kept quiet eventho its hurt alot. And all those nite i cry myself to sleep tinking abt our relationship, how u treat me and when suddenly all the love jus gone......I realize i am jus wasting my time on you...Alhamdullilah i overcome all those feelings and i am a much happier person now. And I am not gog to go out with a person like u on my birthday eventho u want to bring me to Sentosa which is wat u have always wanted to do when we are togeder. Thanks for calling me a loser, an asshole and a person who cant accept reality. But hey look at u now. I shd have listen to all my frens...they told me to forget abt u...and i am gonna do it now.. Thanks ALLAH for showing me wat kinda person he is....

Looking on the brighter side
Its so good to be happy sha la la la....I am a happy bunny....cos i got a bunch of friends that are always there for me.....I love you guys......thanks for being by my side during my ups and downs....

Harlow...good morning! Me jus came back from JB.....hhhmm kinda boring la...but nvm today i spent my day with my family and my aunt family....yup the twins are there....the rascals..hehe....Rij JB ard 4..they went to this tailor shop at hhmmm no idea where....then went to Angsana for Maghrib prayer....gosh so bored seh the place...

Rij Anjung Warisan@8.....We didnt get to sit on top Kirakan mcm makan atas pokok ah tu..oh watever..haha. The place is full house cos its saturday....order a lot of dishes but some of the dishes come too late that we have to cancel it....I actually wanted to take pictures of the dishes but hey they are acting like they never ate for 10 days....gosh....Its like a 60 seconds thing....*shakes head*

Now here I am in front of the comp....so exhausted...and i am so bloated...orite need my beauty sleep...will upload the photo tmr aiite...i mean later ....good nite peeps..

Wee! Going JB again!! This time is with ma family....going to eat at Tanjung Warisan...But I am so full seh...jus ate brunch jus now...hhmm hope i have enuff space to eat somemore...wokay..will update tonite....enjoy yr sat!!

I guess last nite is jus not my day....my peace was ruin by selfish peeps out there....here goes...
CASE 1:
I dunno why "he" must always make things so difficult for me....always making me mad at "him" wif his words. I guess he choose the wrong day(PMS) last nite to talk to me that I was against in watever he said...I dunno why he must always find fault wif me....And dunno WHY he must always mention that K gerl. Oh watever Ridzwan...I bet anyone who hear u speak abt her is getting sick!!
I only have one request....I jus hope that u dun RUIN my birthday wif yr WORDS.

CASE 2:
I get a shock when a dear friend of mine told me dat this gerl (whom i shd not mention the name) is not happy with me when she found out that I was with Ridzwan. It seemed that the way she react is as if i stole her bf away....and she told peeps out there (which i dun even noe how many peeps she told) that i am an arrogant girl....hey hello since when....you are my fren since sec 1 and also my band mates and now u are even my neighbour....for wat i noe i have never fight with u over anything.....thanks for backstabbing me....If you really love "him" go ahead...i already broke off with "him" anyway....for wat i noe he is not yr bf when i first noe him....And i have nvr steal anyone bf b 4....can't believe u are pissed off with me becos of this....you are so Lame girl....haiz

Told "him" abt this....and he too was shocked....I guess people change....

Ok so another one is out...now the final 10.....wee!! Cant wait for next week for AMI!!...hehe

Went out with Lyana today..went to city hall....get my digicam memory card...finally got it at $65..is it cheap?dunno la.....went to Raffles City Shopping Centre to get a baby gift for Rudie's baby, Qistina.....den proceed to CSC to meet rudie....

Went to Rudie house after he knock off to see his new born baby...Qistina....she so cute....Qistina is like a duplicate copy of him...haha.....

Wanna see the pictures..click HERE

AMI today was quite disappointing....some of them really slack...but latoya rox!!Woot! I love her!! She can really sing......But i still dunno who will be elimininated....hhmm its getting harder....

Ok good nite peeps....Me so tired...It been a busy week for me....haiz...bz bz bz till this sunday....

*5 more days to go...ahakz*

Whoa! Life have been great for me these past few days....I managed to get in touch back wif some of ma old old frens.....both sec and pri.....Been great to find them thru Friendster ....But surprisingly their comments abt me are all the same. Have i really change over the years?? I am not sure.....Oh well thanks for yr comment or shd i say compliment...haha....ok watever...

WAtch American top model last nite...Well all the models look ugly to me w/o make up.....I guess make up play a big role in a lady life...haha...cos it change their faces..ahakz! Its really true....But i love Andrianne......i tink dats how i spell it.....she is cool.....look great in the pic wif the snake...u go girl!

This is stupid....my keyboarding are getting bad day by day.....I cant even type 48wpm anymore....sob!! sob!!

So wat did i do today?...hhhmm....actually noting....went to school in the morning....went to cosway pt afta school to run some errands....i bought 2 vcds Kuliah Cinta and Jutawan Fakir....watch those two vcds and have a gd laff....haha...farnie...but kinda bored la Kuliah Cinta cause the story so predictable....exactly the same like kuch kuch Hota Hai....

Overall its a boring day but at least i am not tinking of 'him' or whoever....

Anw i still love this song....Cruel to be kind

Oh, I can't take another heartache
Though you say you're my friend
I'm at my wits end
You say your love is bonafide
But that don't coincide
With the things that you're doing
When I ask you to be nice
You say you gotta be
Cruel to be kind, in the right measure
Cruel to be kind, it's a very good sign
Cruel to be kind, means that I love you
Baby, you gotta be cruel to be kind
Well, I do my best to understand dear
But you still mystify, and I wanna know why
I pick myself up off the ground
And have you knock me back down
Again and again
And when I ask you to explain
You say you gotta be
Cruel to be kind, in the right measure
Cruel to be kind, it's a very good sign
Cruel to be kind, means that I love you
Baby, you gotta be cruel to be kind
Well, I do my best to understand dear
But you still mystify, and I wanna know why
I pick myself up off the ground
And have you knock me back down
Again and again
And when I ask you to explain
You say you gotta be
Cruel to be kind, in the right measure
Cruel to be kind, it's a very good sign
Cruel to be kind, means that I love you
Baby, you gotta be cruel to be kind

So we went JB yest...watched Along come polly yesh i have watch....have no choice la...that woman mati mati nak tgk...Afta de movie went back and chill at Civic Ctr...Her fren Sani joined us.....he is one farnie guy...reminiscing of his army days....it was so embarrassing...we are laffing so loud dat i tink peeps tink we are crazy or smth...but it really scare the hell outta me wen he talk abt his ghost encounter at tekong....esp Pocong I was so damn scared i tell u dat i cant sleep the whole nite....dis is serious...(much more serious den FREON story) But its fun i really enjoyed myself..

Went to BK on d way home to buy some food for supper...den shida's fren who saw me at BK wanna noe me...(this woman really got lotsa guy friends) ok so wat did i say? NO.... Not interested la...sorry...(Look like a player to me...blueek)

Have to say smth here..it really driving me crazy....I really have no idea wat i want Every single day wat i feel is loneliness....and i cant seemed to make it fade away.....Surprisingly, I have made a number of new frens...(dats wat he really want me to do rite) But all of them are moving too fast on me....I cant....I just can't.....I have to run...I hate this kinda guys...I am searching for friendship not LOVE damnit!! Stop forcing me to go out with any of u...cos I will wen i feel like it...stop saying all dos mushy words cos i really hate it...you guys dun even noe me dat well!!..yes u told me to give guys out there a chance and love is blind bla bla bla.....I told u i have tried and i can't...I still not ready to be loved or to love someone....and i noe u too....so why are u forcing me to.. I may appear strong outside...but the fact is i am not.... no longer noe wat brings me happiness.....I hate my LIFE!!

Still waiting for my girlfren to get ready...so damn slow..haiz....we going JB to watch movie...haha....movie freak!! But too bad la cant smuggle anything cos going by bus....tsk tsk!

I am so looking forward for next saturday...Going to Tanjung Warisan to eat...yippie!Yeah 'makan atas pokok' at JB...I simply cant wait....most probably celebrating my bday as well....haha....I love to eat....but can't seem to put on any wght.....aarrgghh!

Wokay at last she is ready....damn u bitch...wat took u so long???....hahah... bye!

Next movie....i am waiting for Starsky and Hutch...Featuring Snoop Dog...huahah....i'm watching cos snoop dog is in it...*lame* watever...

I am in a total mess....My school notes are everywhere.....I hate papers....why cant my teachers jus gave me notes and bind all of them for me....If not give the notes in advance next time so all of us will noe wat to expect the next day so we will understand better....have 3 make up lessons to attend...and not enuff time...GREAT!! I hate this school....I really do...Make me so stressed....I dun even have the mood to go out anymore...3 of ma girlfrens ask me out today but i turned all of dem down....sorry girls...

Have to return to my Business Organization....Exam is like 6 weeks away....Stop Procrastinating BITCH!!

I believe I can
I believe I will
I believe I can forget HIM!!!

Ain't he cute...Diego Luna in Dirty Dancing2....oh i love the way he dance...

So happy dat Leah is out of AMI...i tink she only make it as a bathroom singer...blueek....

Was bored today since my teacher is on MC...i upload some very old photos...
Reminiscence of my secondary school life with my band members and frens...I mish being in the band....here are some photos taken during my teenage years..hehe



My junior (Effendi), instructor, Jas and me (my last speech day performance wif the band)......



The whole band...aaww i mish u all....look at ma drum major..so short...wonder how he handle the maze...*grinz*



Guangyang,Shuqun and macperson sec band .....pic taken with the mayor in Sweden



Toy soldier anyone??haha...that is shuqun sec band uniform which we wore for our performance in Sweden....Wif our hottie James as our drum major..

For more pictures click HERE

Jus receive my exam entry and exam date....let see....

10th May - Business Organization (2pm)
11th May - Effective Business Communication (2pm)
12th May - Marketing (2pm)
13th May - Human Resource Management (2pm)
14th May - Business Finance (2.30pm)

Short Term Plan - Stop procrastinating!!

Long Term Plan - hhhmm search for a better a better school and decide which one i wanna major...dumb....i can't decide...tourism?? or maybe HR??

Oh yeah i am so proud of myself...huahah....I'm able to understand break- even analysis yippie!! but i still cant do the chart...my brain not working again....hhmm

*Good nite peeps!!*

And theres my mind saying think before you go
Through that door that takes me to nowhere (yes boy)
I stopped you all romantic crazy in your head
You think I listen, no I don't care
Can't focus I can't stop
You got me spinning round, round, round, round (like a record)
Can't focus it's too hot (inside)
You'll never get to Heaven, if your scared of getting high

ok enuff haha lazy to cut and paste e whole song....i only like dis part...blueek

hhmm been looking for this song....finally...wokay i kinda into this song at the moment...ahakz...

Good evening people....have to do my assignment....have to focus...hopefully...school start tmr....damn...

Oh yeah anw thanks to all those kind soul who landed on my blog...hehe....thanks for tagging.....

I was so bloody pissed off with someone last nite....who else but dat he......he is champion at making me feel down and pissed off......shd give him an award of achievement or smth....but why is it i only feel pissed off with him for a short while...I cant bring myself to hate him.....why? Hating him is the only way i can forget him....haiz...maybe Allah dun want me to forget him as a person who change me...no matter how i want to run away from him.....the more closer he is to me....HELP!

We can rejoice when we run into problems... they help us learn to be patience. And patience develops strength of character in us and helps us trust Allah more each time we use it until finally our hope and faith are strong and steady.

Got dis from Darlingbaby blog......

Allah is at work in your life - even when you do not recognize it or understand it. Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

Reading dat at DB blog kinda calm me down...thanx!

*oh yeah wont be joining the comp la..cant fit the training inside my tight schedule..how sad!! tsk tsk*

Juz got home from watching Dirty Dancing2....whoa!!And i'm in love......(yeah rite!)....with the actor...Deago Luna...He is so damn cute....me and shida was drooling looking at him....he is a really gd dancer....I tink the movie really worth the money.....for those who haven catch it....pls head down to the cinema....And yeah Harry porter and the prisoner of Azkaban will be out anytime soon....sheesh cant wait for it....Great i haven finish the fifth book till now...haha....so pathetic....

Rite now i am still tinking whether to join back Teratai for the Anak seni comp which is on the 4th April..haiz...join?not join?join?not join? Haiya....dunno whether i can commit fully or not....damn!

Craving for vanilla latte.....hhmm ....I noe i cant really drink coffee cos i got a history of migraine which my mum always nag at me but i always ignore her.....jus the other day i drank 2 double expresso...can u believe it? But i love it...yummy! and yeah true enuff i got migraine on the way home....and i nearly vomit in the train....i guess i cant drink strong coffee...hhhmm...such a waste.....

Oh yeah! Have u ever try drinking expresso with butter? Yeah u heard me correctly. Wif butter....try it!! Its nice......jus dun add sugar k.....jus add butter....its really nice.....

*Bkn anang meradang syg, bkn hendak menentang syg..bukan pulak menunjuk garang*

Is dis the month of break up or wat?!...Why is every single one of my friends are suffering from heartbreak.....why huh? One of my gal fren....she was ignored by her bf (who is 1 yr younger) wassup with guys man? But I tink her fault also ah....i already advise her not to go into relationship wif guys YET...but she chose to ignore. Ok fine.....I got noting more to say....

Been feeling quite exhausted but happy.....hah first time in like so many weeks...i feel happy....no idea what makes me happy....*grinz* Spent my saturday aftanun at home...went out with ma parent to paya lebar then I meet Sali and Afni@ town....kinda stupid to be there cos they are having a quarrel...feel like smacking both their head cos they quarrel over stupid matters....and there i was sitting and walking in bet them...haiz....nasib baik ko sedara aku, kalo tak aku da angkat kaki jalan

Going out with ma girlfriend Shidah (the one same bday as me) to watch Dirty Dancing2...Eeerr is there a part 1 to it? great i didnt even watch the part one and now me gonna watch part 2....haha....Everytime if i wanna go out with Shidah i have to report to her wat i will be wearing cos if not we will be wearing the same clothes, bag and shoe.....WEIRD rite??!! but we do have the same taste in nearly everything....Both of us are MANGO addict!!

hhmm...guess i will tag u guy wen i rij home from the movie..hehe...hope u guys have a great sunday...

Hey F**k la.....why must u mention her name whenever we have a conversation.....why must u tell me when both of u have a fight.....I dun give a damn abt wat happen bet both of u......Yes i am yr fren....but i am a fren who ever be in yr heart......so there are certain things that are better left unsaid.....yeah as usual u dun really care abt my feelings....u jus care abt her.....I am sorry if i blow up suddenly.....sometime i tink u dun have a brain!!!

How i wish i can say all dat to him.....but i noe if isaid all dat....we will have the biggest fight of the year.....crap....

Going to work in abt an hr time....gonna bring all my CDs.......huhahaa......its friday!! Shd play some happening music.....I dun care ....hurhurhur....guess wat, i tink i gonna be late....ahakz!

Dun you guys find that blogging is another way of finding yr old frens....hehe....Thats the good ting abt blogging....I'm lovin it

* When is it gog to be REALLY over huh? aarrgghh I can go krayzie!!*

I cant study at home.Period!I managed to sort out all notes yest at the lib....i simply love lib@esplanade....hehe...its oso the place wer 'he' told me he love me...oh well dats jus the past...watever kan....i shd tink of the future...

Played the "honey" cd at work today during lunch time...we dun care abt customers...haha...that raggae guy Madi keep dancing to the songs...farnie..from behind he really look like the small kid in "honey"...lepakz! shd do it again on friday JUZ BLAZE ahakz!

Was hanging ard tamp last nite when 'he' msg me....haiz....exchange a few sms...when suddenly i started yelling at him in sms...haha...dunno la...my temper go hay wire....he told me wat he feel la yada yada yada....hhhmmm why am i still missing him huh?

I have no motivation at all......wat shd i do? So depressed.....exams is like 2 mths away...i cant study at home...too many distraction....I think i gog library to study..i hope it works in some way.....

ok I'm getting ready to school....if not i am late again...damn dat teacher...gggrrr!!

Went to school today....its a beginning of a new module....business organization....and guess wat when i rij my class.....MY TEACHER LOCK THE DOOR and u noe wat dat mean? NO LATE COMERS! so bloody piss off...i was late for only 20 mins....ok fine...i went off and met tonet at town....watever....

Went shopping at Giordano with Miss Giordano (nurul huda aka tonet) haha....i bought the linen white pants and one pink round neck top....i am one happy bunny cos i got 20% disc....thanks tonet....

ok me off to clean ma messy room....and get some work done...i hope i can...if only my bed will disappear for an hour or so ....maybe i can focus more...hhmm

This is farnie.....got this from email....the truth abt Friendship


1. When you are sad, ...I will get you drunk (or gorge on chocolate) and help you plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue, I'll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile, I'll know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared, I will rag you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried, I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.

6. When you are confused, .I will use little words to explain.

7. When you are sick, stay away from me until you're well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall, I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

J called me again...his call is quite frequent since i met him...wat does dat mean? I'm scared...haiz...

I tink i noe y i got the feeling of gog hiatus...hmmmz

ok i am off to dreamland......

I got this from email....how bad is my temper according to horoscope

ARIES MARCH 21 ?APRIL 20

Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, disloyalty and decorum. But Arians are also known to go into a rage very easily when challenged. Those of you who have been on the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed down they can even get violent. But one thing is certain if the opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, Arians cool down very fast. They are also the first to apologise, which makes them easier to forgive. dat is rite...i forgive peeps easily..hehe...

oh man i really love dis song...its quite an old song...but it makes me dance to the music...shake it shake it shake it.....

React by Eric Sermon
Let me hear ya say
"Kisi ko" (if someone)
Kudkushi ka (has suicidal)
Shok ho tow" (interests)
Kya kare" (the what can we do)
Put your hands in the air everybody
C'mon, where them dawgs at?

Ok hi...spent my day with the gerls...at Masjid Asyakirin..yeah cool seminar...but i slept thruout the seminar....haha....dun ask me wat i learn...cos i was at dream land....gosh my eyes cant seem to open...as the gerls were bz writing me bz sleeping...good huh..well afta dat we ate @ Banquet Jurong Pt...ate salmon set.yesh the Japanese Stall...the salmon is nice..yummy

ok off to dreamland...have to go masjid mydin tmr morning...den going geylang to get some kurta...hehe...i love kurta...*krayzie*

*Its over....Its over...Its over....lalalalala*

Yey!I FINALLY watched honey. The movie really rox!!I feel like watching again or maybe jus buy the VCD....haha...watching dat movie reminisce of my clubbing days..haha....at that point of time....how i wish i can dance...hahaha....Jessica alba can really dance....envy envy.....i really a hip hop freak sia....i already bought the sountrack...*Grinz* guess wat i cried during the movie.....i cried at the ending part .maybe because of her determination to get the money and do it for the sake of the kids....hhhmm

Rij home ard 9pm...go pasar malam with hidayah for a while...was in front of the computer when i saw a Private Number....I smile cos i noe its Jufri.....And it really was him...haha...he asked me out to JB....and yeah i went to JB with him and his friends....

When i saw him...i find dat i really mish him a lot.....we rij JB ard 12am....went to Bike shop to send his bike for servicing....i was like the only girl there...ahaha....i do feel scared of cos...I keep staring at his face when he talk and i find that i really like his eyes....now then i realize he got long eyelashes....(melt)....and i do try to find whether there r any feeling for him......i found out i still do love him tho not as much like b 4....i still care a lot for him.....der is no way we are going back togeder again.....we r like in two different world.....all he talk to his frens is bike bike bike.....wah guys can really talk abt bike for the whole nite.....weird....but i loike his bike....its Spiderman cool!!

Ok so i rij home at 6am...haha...was so exhausted seh....we actually waited till 5.30am for his fren bike to finish servicing...gosh...i nearly fall asleep at the coffeeshop....luckily my mum never nag....she jus ask wer i go...hehe..thank god!!hehe...Jufri called me up to ask whether my mum nag or not....so sweet of himtalk for a while...oh i hate talking abt the past....it really sux.....thank goodness the past dun even effect me in any way.....

I really dunno how i am feeling now....love?miss?....i am confused....I am scared i will love jufri again jus like last time....i tink i shd keep my distance away.....no way am i gonna get myself hurt again...

ok got to go out with inda and sue to the forum thingy at masjid Asyakirin.....a long day again for me....gonna meet ma mama after the forum...haiz...all i wanna do is sleep......

will reply to u guys tag as soon as i got home ya...gotta rush now....hehe....pppooooffftt

*In The Words Of A Broken Heart ,It's Just Emotion That's Taken Me Over ,Caught Up In Sorrow Lost In My Soul*

Something happen to my dear girlfriend dat i was bloody shocked dat i cant say anything....And i started to tink....can i ever trust guys again? can i love a guy again? I have advise her umpteen time but she chose not to listen...wen i listen to her story i decided dat i am gonna draw a big line bet me and guys...I am scared of getting hurt again...I am sorry but dat will be the way....

wokay...have to stay focus....have to finish up sorting all my notes...gd eve peeps

Oh yeah hhmm hiatus?Hmm dunno yet..maybe someday...one day...not sure...for now ...not yet i guess...*wink*

*Where would I be without my baby,The thought alone might break me,And I don't wanna go crazy*

Spiky hair..(wow!), big and romantic eyes (melt), dark skin (hhmm), cute face (aaww)
Guess wat....he's taken.....oh wat a bummer....guess all the cute guys are taken huh?...watever!

ok back to my marketing notes...and make a study plan for myself...da!

I'm a goner...he still on my lonely mind...still missing him..I'm still in a daze...

Maybe i should go on hiatus too...to bring back the sanity in me...

*these wounds won't seem to heal ,this pain is just too real ,there's just too much that time cannot erase*

*Still sleeping...ZzzZZ*

My Immortal

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

*So sleepy....good nite*

Here are the photos....


the little bugger...Afiq

D two rascal..hehe..

Oi mau gaduh kaper.....haha...notty adek

My aunt actually focus on my cheek...ggrrr

Show me yr tummy adek....haha...

For more pictures click HERE

ok so i skip school today...jus becos i didnt study for the test...ahakz! Bored

Surprisingly, I received a call from "him" last nite.....I was sleeping actually...but i tink i noe why he call.....and i tink its becos someone told him smth and he actually trying to explain to me things.....i cant be bothered to hear actually....but he still told me...and i really feel like fainting....i feel as tho the world is spinning real fast....I jus keep quiet....he told me to talk.....so i changed the subject.....he keep talking abt wat happen bet us....and i feel hurt again....why cant he try to understand.....why up till now he must mention that gerl to me.....why?why? why must he always make me cry....and why do i still talk to him huh!! I failed again.....haiz...I still care for him .....After the conversation.....i really have no idea how i feel.....sad?Happy?Disappointed? I dunno.....I guess i am numb already to all those feelings....have to live with it....I'm taking each day at a time and trying to make myself happy.....but i know my smile are all fake.....WATEVER

I know i have been talking abt him too much....but i tink i prefer to write my feelings on my blog cos it makes me feel better......

*This song really suit my mood now....Oh god pls help me*